I decided to leave the Catholic church when I was in highschool, and since that day my relationship with God has been constantly changing and evolving. I became very close to God, being an agnostic, through high school, I felt like I had a personal relationship with him. In college I let other things get in the way. I didn’t want them to, but sometimes life happens and you can only look back with 20/20 hindsight and regret the way things went.
2014 has been a stressful year for me so far. I’m moving out on my own, not only out of my parents house, but out of my homestate, across the country to a place I’ve never been before. I’ve had issues with finding a place to live, and roommate troubles, and I’m realizing I’m going to have to learn how to do things for myself, much more than I do now. I’m terrified of living alone, and all the adult things that come with that, and between that and the terror of adult life out of school, I’m realizing I miss my relationship with God.
It feels weird and out of place to think like this again, but I like it. I feel like a baby deer trying to walk across ice, but I’m gaining my legs and learning how to do this again, and it feels good. This is a very personal post for me, but I feel like I need to and want to put this out there, because it’s something I truly want to work on and put first. It brings me peace.
Spirituality is a strange and constantly changing beast, and I’m ready to jump back in.